Standing behind my daughter at Matt Maher's concert, I was struck with the inspiration (I believe a nudge from God) to begin this leg of my journey, and to record it on this blog. Will anyone else ever see it? No idea. But, it is important, at least to me.
Do something new. Something different. How stuck I have been in the same and it is sucking the life out of me. Refusing God's present to languish in the past, to wishful think about the future, to regret, deny, sulk, fear. It is bearing fruit in my life, as all things do, and it is rotten. It is offensive to all around me, and feeding my family from it is making them sick too. Yes, I could go on like this forever. There is no requirement for me to change....I have proven that to be true. I have to DO the thing. The thing that God puts in front of me. That He requires of me. Asks me to do. The journey I have dreaded taking....I have fought, rationalized away in an endless parade of tomorrows. Lay down the food. It is the beginning of this different. It is the now stepping stone....the what comes first before the next. So much more wrapped up inside of this one action. It will be the unfolding of a hope and a future.
